LITTLE BIT OF HEART

don't know what you want from me
don't know what you think you see
tried to be the man for you
and now you say you think we're through

(little bit of heart says don't do it / little bit of love says don't go)

don't think i can take much more
never had to crawl before
never thought you'd let me drop
thought that i was on the top

(little bit of heart says don't do it / little bit of love says don't go)

try to keep my hold on you
try to shave a point or two
hold you close like no one can
rip that suitcase from your hand

(little bit of heart says don't do it / little bit of love says don't go)
 
 

BREAKING DOWN

you know it's coming and it won't be pretty
it's gonna hit you from the upside down
gonna be a little freak of nature
page one in a two-bit town yeah

won't you tell us all about your secret
are you really gonna make us guess
make-believing that you're so together
skin and bone wrapped around the mess

you're not fooling anybody
the word is out it's getting round
you're falling into heavy mental
cracking up and breaking down

your will is shaky and you can't contain it
so wired that you cannot feel
drifting south on a lonesome highway
not a soul behind the wheel

you're not fooling anybody
the word is out it's getting round
you're falling into heavy mental
cracking up and breaking down

an inch away from the lost horizon
a mile back from the big hello
two doors down from the soul asylum
such a pity that you have to go

you're not fooling anybody
you're lucky just to be around
you're falling into heavy mental
cracking up and breaking down

you're not fooling anybody
there's not a savior to be found
you're falling into heavy mental
cracking up and breaking down
 
 

YES AND NO

you poured extra wine / and i stopped on a dime
waiting for clouds to explode
took a long breath / and you scared me to death
thought this was the end of our road
but the shine in your eye / says it's not quite goodbye
another chance at cracking this code

may i stay now / you say so
do you love me / yes and no

now the sun's up again / and you're missing my friend
since you set your heart to the dawn
and the covers are messed / and the pillow is pressed
but who knows how long you've been gone
does this mean you rise up / to shine up our world
or just to retreat in your own

is it late now / must i go
do you love me / yes and no

did we fall too fast
did we fall too far
did i lose your heart

now i stand on my sin / and i beg to come in
knowing just how this could start
and it's too late for sad / and i know i've gone bad
but you're still the one in my heart
and if all of these memories / are all that i have
at least we will not be apart

must i stand here / watch you go
do you love me / yes and no
can we come back / must i guess
do i love you / yes and yes
 
 
 

KEEPING SECRETS
 

wish i'd never come here
wish i'd never known the things i know
and now i gotta go
and i wish i hadn't swallowed
every blood-red lie you ever told
all i got was old

and i won't look back / once i hit the door
and i won't be keeping secrets any more

it's not like i was tryin'
to throw myself right under your black train
but it's just the same
and i swore to god i'd never
make the same mistakes the same old way
but that was yesterday

so i'm gone so fast my feet won't meet your floor
and i won't be keeping secrets any more

i'm so tired i can barely breathe
from living in your make-believe
should have known the deck was stacked
hello highway / look who's back

well i don't think you can tell me
anything i haven't told myself
i don't need your help
and it really doesn't matter
but all those seeds you planted in my head
well they came up dead

and you would've thought i would've seen before
and i won't be keeping secrets any more
the dream has just imploded on its core
and i won't be keeping secrets any more
 
 
 

BETHESDA
 

got a postcard from bethesda
just when i thought i'd never know
where you'd landed when you left me
and if you'd really let us go
picked it up and read the backside
tucked it underneath my skin
with all the room that you take up there
there's barely space to slide it in

and if i make it to bethesda
i know exactly what i'll do
sell my soul and buy some roses
and bring them all right back to you
and if i make it to bethesda
you'll know just what i've come here for
to pour my heart out on your doorstep
and lay it at your feet once more

in the months that you've been missing
i've picked up stories here and there
they say you've changed your way of thinking
and the color of your hair
they say you're looking wise and lovely
and you're adored by many men
but i know you'd come down from your high high horse
just to use me once again

and if i make it to bethesda
i know exactly what i'll do
sell my soul and buy some roses
and bring them all right back to you
and if i make it to bethesda
you'll know just what i've come here for
to pour my heart out on your doorstep
and lay it at your feet once more

and if i make it to bethesda
maybe you would be so kind
to make believe that you still love me
at least until you change your mind
 
 
 

HOTEL BLUE

well the nights are hot and the lights are red
but you feel so cold when you're in your bed
but you like to dance and you love to coo
and you won't believe what i can do for you

well i have a car and i've had a few
and i have a room at the hotel blue

well the place is packed with the best of breed
and they're oh so young and they're all you need
you can hitch your line to the nearest star
and the man won't care who the hell you are

i can buy a drink i can make it two
if you'll take a ride to the hotel blue

you can come with me you can take my hand
or you can walk away with another man
but i have a heart and it's here in two
it beats for me but it cries for you

you can pick your game
you can play it through
you can strip your gear at the hotel blue
and it's you for me
and it's me for you
and it's time to scream at the hotel blue
 
 

DEAD

don't cast your eyes at me and i won't cast back
and find myself in mourning for the things i seem to lack
just keep off my path and i'll try to do the same
god knows that two can play this wicked game

forget what you did forget what i said
let's just call it gone and leave it for dead

tell me was this mercy or was it just a line
were we living off a stolen kiss on borrowed time
did something bright and shiny wrap around your heart
and squeeze and squeeze it 'til it came apart

what's in the past what's in your head
let's just call it gone and leave it for dead

never thought i'd be this lonely
never thought you'd be this crazy
never thought you'd throw it all away
and make me rue the day

i won't be letting all this get to me
you're just one less fish in a wide wide wide sea
why don't we make believe that it was one big lie
we can drown in regret or float on goodbye

i know this selfish fire is waiting to be fed
but let's just call it gone and leave it for dead
 
 

HELLO SAVIOR

hello savior / i hope i'm not disturbing
i know that it's your busy time of year
but i was wondering / why we've not seen you lately
in all these lights you seem to disappear
and i've heard talking / and i've heard singing
but i've not seen a miracle in years
and i'm starting to imagine you gone
and i'm wondering if i dreamed you all along

hello savior / i know i'm not your favorite
i know i've done some things that let you down
but something told me / you always kept an eye out
at least until these latest storms came round
did you lose interest / did you lose patience
or were your promises just empty sound
and i'm starting to imagine you gone
and i'm wondering if i dreamed you all along

you're everywhere and nowhere
like a storm that never shows
or a cloud that barely snows
when what we need is rain

and those who say they love you
they only seem to use you
to get ahead or get around
or hide some secret shame
that comes out later anyway

so hello savior / i need some kind of sign here
or is it i'm just talking to the wind
were you a phantom / that they made up to keep me
from ever seeing myself as a friend
and if you're out there / and if you love us
then why the hell won't you come back again
and i'm starting to imagine you gone
and i'm wondering if i dreamed you all along
 
 

HERE FOR GOODBYE

i had it all locked down / i had it all planned out
until the rest of the world / got in the way
they always say the winds of change / are right around the corner
but here comes tomorrow babe / and it looks like today

and i try and i try to make sense of myself
 staring my soul in the eye
and i wonder if i ever had half a chance
or if i'm just here for goodbye

a little light a lot of shadow / not that balanced i know
seems i'm living in the darkness / more than is wise
but i can't help the way i feel / and i can't change the things i've done
i've been burning the bridges / and cutting the ties
 

and i try and i try to make sense of myself
staring my soul in the eye
and i wonder if i ever had half a chance
or if i'm just here for goodbye

another name another number
another scar on my heart
can't keep my head together
and i can't keep can't keep my demons apart

now everything is so still / and everything is so cold
and everything is exactly / like i knew it would be
and if dawn's really out there / on life's far horizon
there must be a ray of light / that i've yet to see

and i try and i try to make sense of myself
staring my soul in the eye
and i wonder if i ever had half a chance
or if i'm just here for goodbye

and i'm carving my name so you know i was here
that all of this isn't a lie
and i wonder if i ever had half a chance
or if i'm just here for goodbye
 
 
 

ANCA

i can see the sun in you
as it rises from the blue
not sure why you don't see it too
you are beautiful
you are beautiful

everybody feels your shine
talk about it all the time
but you're the one who's left behind
can't you feel it too
all this love in you

and a magnifying glass held up to your heart
cannot tell a lie
if it's said a million times / can you still deny
or are you gone
is it over now

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